i choose to do this....instead of my tutorial.

yep, this is a postponed post...I shld have post this yesterday but somehow lotsa things that i need to do kept me away from my blog.
I went for red cross camp during the weekend. Yes, I have changed my cca. Now, I'm no longer part of the dragon boat team, though i wish I am.
I decided to go for red cross interview n yay, they accepted me!!!....haha maybe not a very big deal huh?
but why red cross...it's becoz i wanna learn first aid skills...haha I think it's kinda cool n useful too!
but as soon as I was accepted, I was told that i must go for compulsory common orientation for all the chapters in RCHN. Overwhelming it was, I needed to wash my clothes, eat my delayed dinner (instant noodle it was), pack all the things I need for camp in a few hours time. (We need to gather at 7, so must sleep early to wake up early) Luckily I got my new elle travelling bag. Luv it so much coz it's just very easy to just dumb all my stuff in. So packing was brief n good.
okay, i dun have the time to describe all the activities during the camp now (as u can see from the title, tutorials are still waiting for me...this is an escapade)
but it's mostly team bonding games. we were re-grouped with ppl from other chapters including other polys, unis n jcs...
the highlight of the games (personally for me) is the rafting. Though I was not very impressed with the making process. I remembered last time during OBS camp, we did a much much better n stronger raft that can accomodate almost 20 ppl.
at first I was reluctant to ride it coz it looks damn unstable. but in the end i decided to give it a shot coz the others said it was very fun.
It was fun indeed. but rather risky to operate in such a wavy sea. We were busy balancing the raft that we didnt have much time to enjoy pedalling.
the rest of the camp went well but of course it was less enthu compared to o'week. but the ppl I meet r nice, so no prob lah.
Elizabeth was in the camp too. She joined this cca earlier than me so she knows more ppl inside than me. n I guess she's part of the committee now. So, sometimes I hang around with the committee ppl too, namely Jasmine, wynne, dinesh, gordon (dunno how to spell his chinese name), n mohan.
they are nice ppl but since i was new, I could not gel with them that well. Sometimes I just feel damn out. but obviously it's not their problem. this is just the way it is. Then the other thing is that they really joke n talk cock a lot to each other, which i dun do to ppl I just noe. I just cant joke n talk cock usually unless I got common things too talk abt...
so that was one area where I was not very satisfied about, apart from the fact that I can see cliques forming in the chapter...sigh. I dun like it lah.
oh ya, actually got another unlucky thing happened during the camp...my grp got the duty to clean the female toliets...yucks, female toilet sux....all sorta things can be found there...bleaghs
okay, stop complaining gal! u still got maths tutorial glaring in front of u!...huaaaa...I wanna sleep liaozzzzz

the best o week!

photos of the o week



dress nice nice for inauguration




before our SP game...say cheese!




sentosa day is muah chee-ing day




the most beautiful sunset!




we had good food...nyum!




getting ready for rag day...after 2 hrs of sleep only




zephyr's funky ogls

rigorous training...Dragon boat team, is it for me?

Yesterday, sarah, as in 04s12 sarah, asked me to go NUS dragon boat training wif her...actually, I'm quite interested in it after I watched dragon boat competition on tv last holiday...it really looked damn cool everything is so coordinated...
yup, so I went to meet the ppl there... Oh gosh, the gals are super muscular lah...as in the senior...I felt inferior...haha
so i agreed to have training with them, it started with warming up n stretching n jumping jack..the normal stuff lah u noe. Even from this simple exercise, I can see that these ppl are super committed n discipline. they like did everything whole-heartedly...so i just follow oso since i dun mind doing exercise.
after warm up, we RAN to the gym...yes, we really ran, like mad bull...haha..
okay, reach gym....honestly, I never go gym before...okay, maybe got go...but never tried all the machines n stations....except for the treadmills...
luckily, we were divided into grps n I'm in a grp with another cindy...haha...cindy is such a common name...but i still like it...haha
yup the ppl in my grp are very nice, cindy, charmaine n amanda...n they taught me how to use each of the machines n taught me the breathing technique...
n I was damn amazed to see them do the heavy weights...crazy lah, i cant even do half of their weight...haha
after gym was medicine ball...It's an orange ball made of rubber n dunno wad else...coz from the look of it, it looks damn light n it seems to be very easy to pass the ball....
I got the shock of my life when I did the first pass, It was damn damn heavy lah. and it was hard to pass accurately...but after awhile i could get the hang of it n did okay lah...
but that was not all. Of course must do running rite...but yep, the fact is, NUS area is never flat....it's always uphill, downhill....can u imagine running up the slope...xiao lah!...but the team is super encouraging n very supportive. they kept shouting jiayou all the way when we ran. my badminton training last holiday have done me some good. I noe that my stamina is still there even though not as fit as the rest. I managed to complete the run n return to SRC feeling satisfied with myself.
the best part was, soya milk! they said that it's good for muscle recovery...after all the gymming n running, my muscles are damaged for sure...so soya milk is good!
yup, got to noe a few year ones there too...they are friendly bunch of ppl but the rest have known each other since they went for training for 2 weeks aledy...
they sure grew stronger after the training. can see that some of them are not the sport type but see how they can do a bit of pull-ups (still with help of course)...
went fong seng for supper (or dinner exactly)....i ate maggie mie chicken coz i suddenly got craving for it...but I promise next time I go there I'm gonna eat roti john, it looks super nice. n dun wanna order the ice blended anymore coz it's always too sweet. bleak!
yup, come back my room n can aledy feel that my hands were trembling. I think i strained my muscle too much aledy. so I bathed with hot water n applied so muscle rub before it gets worse.
luckily today I can still lift my hand n go lecture...haha but still quite pain lah.
see..this is my first training n they say that it was still slack. I dunno how tough it's going to get. I dunno whether this is the rite thing for me. I'm not very used to training hard 3 times a week. but I'm going to see how first coz this saturday is the really water training. someone, help me decide pls...I hate making decisions....
i hope my bone wont crack with this kind of intensive exercise....
i enjoyed it somehow. but the post-effect is really torturing...how??

adventurous me....

today is really audition day for me...
i was actually totally free coz eg1413 has not started....
but today got 2 auditions that i attended...basically all singing one lah...
the first one is "voices", it's like the club of soloist...haha...I think i was a bit crazy when i decided to go for this...haha..but all this oso becoz i got one friend accompanying me there...just as crazy as me...yetfeng, this cool gal i met in zephyr. I see her almost everyday coz she's taking chem eng too!haha...
yup, then the second audition was choir, very classic but i think it's even tougher than voices...seriously....they asked me to do scales like a a a a a a a a a....down n up the scale, n i think i screwed it up.... but i dun really care lah. since i go there really for fun...if they really want me, i'll be very surprise oso....if they dun want, i won't be too dissapointed oso lah...expected. i'm not choir material i think....
but actually for those 2 auditions i only need to prepare once, coz can just sing the same song...haha...I sang "how do I live" by leanne Rhimes....
i wonder how i sounded during the auditions...I dun mind not getting the place but i just dun wanna sound bad n embarrasing...haha...anyway, it's purely for fun lah. I dun wanna do cca just for points...no fun at all.
oh ya, for both, actually they had short interview for me. but the ppl are super friendly which made me quite calm n I can really be myself during the interview...
not like the harmoc exco interview that I had in JC...bleh...bad memory...
and after both auditions, me n yet feng planned to go for CHeSS tea...it's not chess the game...it's chem n env eng society i think...haha...
but we were so late that we couldnt find a single person there...we expect to find some free food to fill our empty stomach...too bad lah. i dun think they even had food lah...haha
so we ended up eating at Engin canteen (techno edge)...had grilled chicken ...super nice i think...that was oso our first time eating at engin canteen even though we are from engin....we've been to business, arts, scince canteens but not engin. But engin canteen is really more spacious than the rest...maybe the variety is less...but not that bad lah...
shld try to explore ard campus more to find good food...
i think i begin to love the life here, since i got my good friends around, i can try different stuff that i never tried before...haha...
but i still miss my friends who are no longer in s'pore...alice, dwee n vidi...
hope u ppl doing fine too!

is this the rite choice?

wad cca to join?...that's the common question ppl are asking ard here....
so ppl just wanna slack n dun join anything, some ppl are aledy very busy wif their hall stuff and the rest are just floating around trying all the ccas available...
maybe i'm one of the ppl from the third category. I dun exactly try all...but I'm trying to explore which is the right one for me....but the more I explore the more I cant decide...
but...tonite I went to social n ballroom dancing welcome tea...This may not be the usual me, if u realise. I seldom keep in contact with dancing stuff...music yes, but seldom dancing.
why ballroom dance...? honestly, I was inspired by the taiwan show...(this is wad i have been watching during the past holiday)...there's this one show hosted by jacky wu every weekend which always showcase ballroom dancing...somewad a competition. Yup, n after watching so many shows I am just curious n interested to try. becoz I think it's just unique n elegant...sexy too...haha
wadever, I signed up for it aledy...for the wed n sun slot....
but I realise that I need to spend a lot if I'm in this cca...dancing shoe n paying for the course itself....but actually wad I really worry abt is time management...
the courses are at nite n I just scared that I cant cope with all the upcoming assignments n tutorials....
but i oso think that uni is my last chance of exploring all the unusual stuff that I dun get to try before....so I shall gather all my courage n commitment to try wadever else I enjoy...
hope I can still manage well and the money I paid is worth it...

"Scholar" is a taboo....

just came back from Suntec for our OG outing...
it's like a wrap up of the o week...but this would not be the end....this is just the beginning...wakakak...so philosophical....
yup, we ate n talk kok at swensens...ask the guys to do arm wrestling....n wadever other silly games.
n we ended the nite wif a toast at the sky garden. I think everyone in the OG are glad that they join Zephyr...same here too...this is like the best OG that I ever have....hope we'll always stay in touch even though school stuff will start pilling up soon i'm sure...
yup...that was the happy2 part....
haha...
then abt the title of this blog which i am abt to address...(hmm sounds a bit like GP essay aledy)
why does the issue come about....
because it was brought up by someone...yeah...should keep the person anonymous...haha
yup...but I really feel that I have to comment on this one to set ppl's mind set correctly...at least for me n my friends.
I have been a scholar in S'pore for 4 years....and I feel that the word scholar is very very sensitive. It's better to hide your identity as a scholar than to boast abt it. Maybe in your home country, being a scholar is a pride. but if u reveal or introduce urself as a scholar here...u are doomed...
haha
i am saying this from personal experience.
during this engin o week, i always try to keep low profile, especially wif my surname being so unique. I just dun hope that a string of questions start coming to me....
typical kinda questions are something like this....
a: oh your surname is so unique.../ where do u stay?
b: I'm a foreigner from Indonesia....
a: oh really, i didnt know that...

if the conversation just ended there without further interogation...that will be fine n cool. which was wad happen to me during the camp...n I am well accepted although I am a bit different. coz of course I put in my effort to blend in oso...after all I am a chinese....we shld look abt the same...haha (wad crap is this)
but when ppl start finding out that u came here on scholarship...I can hear cynical tone setting in...haha

yup, ppl's perception of a scholar is something like this:
nerd, antisocial, only care abt books, lecture, tutorial, mugger.....yar, u noe all those characters....haha
but seriously, being a scholar is just like being a normal youth, teenage who has life not only inside their little academic world....
scholars are just like every other students....some maybe smarter some may not be that smart...but does it reallly matter...it's just one of the talents that u got. Different ppl excel in different things ....we are humans too... we have our fun time, we have our partying time, we got our hang out time, ...basically we are all the same..
but why ppl like to look at scholar differently, maybe treat scholar differently too?....haiz....this is a question hard to anwser....
but it's oso not rite for me to generalise that... coz obviously there are some scholars that care abt their academic performance more than others....I mean, mug more, more hardworking n so on....but is there anything wrong wif that? ppl just have different priorities in life...
but I'm happy n proud to be a scholar. just dun treat me differently. I'm normal human just like the rest of u....
I think I'm speaking for some ppl out there too...rite?haha

rag day....

continuation....
haha my previous blog is too long aledy, decide to chop it of there...
this one is abt the rag day, the day after drinking games...or shld i say the same day as the drinking game....
i only took short 2 hrs nap....on lt chairs..imagine how uncomfortable it was, but amazingly i still managed to sleep for awhile....haha
woke up early n get ready to cheer for the rag team....go engin go!
but actually after seeing sheares rag (though they didnt win)....i dun really like engin rag...like not so well planned. but still have to give the compliments to those who were willing to spend their nites there instead of sleeping at home...salute!
oh ya, i painted my hand wif the word "engin" in blue...then when the sun strikes, there it left a mark on my left arm....luckily the ones on my face didnt leave any trace..fiuh...if got, i just wont dare to step out of my room lah...
the rest of the day was pretty normal, just had dinner at newyork newyork @citilink n end up talking rubbish...yar that's wad ppl do when they are tired...

quite sad that o week has aledy ended...wish it could be longer...but maybe not. i dun want my bones to crack after that....to tired lah sometimes but overall super duper enjoyable...haha

from sentosa day till today....part 1

wait...when did i go sentosa ya??
it seems like very long time ago. my biological cycle was sorta ruined n sometimes i dunno when's the time to sleep n when's the time to wake up. thanks to the endless cards n games sessions....
oh ya, back to sentosa day...flash back!
that morning i was a bit panicky coz i just realised that i havent submit my reimbursement form to yih (the deadline was 3 days ago...yep i was late)...but luckily they stil wanted to accept it...fiuhhh fiuhhhh...task 1: done!
yup, then i rushed back pgp to meet irma as she is going to sentosa too! yiiipieee got someone to go together....
yep, we stopped at harbour front there n we went our own way. I went to meet zephyrians n had heavy lunch before the wet n crazy day ahead....
i believe palawan beach looked like a sea of oranges wif all the engin ppl wearing those orange singlet... haha but it is a nice colour...happy n cheerful!
n of course, orientation @ sentosa will not be perfect without any wet games...we literally had "buffet of wet games" (quoted from yi xing)...haha...
but playing on the beach n in the sea really made me think back of the times in vhall...we were so near to the beach n yet we seldom played there...only went ecp to run or to see ppl build sand castle...oh...i missed those times a lot...
anyway, sentosa is actually more fun lah....can dunk ppl, can muachi ppl, do stupid things without caring wad the passer-by would say coz we were in such a big grp...haha... oh ya, highlight of the day, getting dunked in "unusual manner" twice...haha...i didnt noe whether i flip or not during the dunk...just couldnt feel aledy...
at the end of the day, i was totally roasted esp my shoulders...red like boiled crab...even as i'm writing this my shoulder is still red, though not as painful as it was that day...
the climax of the day was the camp fire though i didnt really enjoy it as much as the wet games....coz it was so dark n crowded...haha...but not bad lah..that was my first camp fire wif all the singing n mamboing...haha
after that, as if we were not tired at all, we still had supper...
that nite, i reached my room at 11 plus...tiring but wif very pleasant feelings..haha...that's when i was trigerred to make cards for the ogls coz i think they had put in so much effort n gave us so much fun during this orientation week. i must say that it's even more fun than vj orientation.... thanks a lot for turning my boring days staying alone in pgp into a more fantastic week...
yup, but that was not the end yet...
the next day i had some talk over wif the CHESS...haha 1 day camp thingy lah but i was not very interested to join them coz i had my sense of belonging on zephyr aledy...bleah this sounds very cliche'...wadever...but that's how i felt lah...
classmates can know them next time during boring tutorials...but og ppl wont meet that often liao mah...
yep, in the end i cao halfwaf to join the food hunt at engin o weeek...
before leaving, yi xing baked a cheese cake for us...super nice. it was different from the cheesecake i made before. it was baked, mine was only refrigerated...but both are nice...haha
the food hunt is just a shopping trip from one supermarket to the others...form PS, Bugis, Queensway wif a series of tasks to complete....
but food hunt was not the fun part lah...the interesting part is that we need to prepare some nice dishes for the judges wif the materials we bought...I'm damn proud of the food that our grp prepared...super duper nice...too bad we didnt win...but that doesnt really matter isnt it?....it was the fun that counts...really
that nite was supposed to be the finalle nite for us...ohhh so sad lah, esp if the thought of lectures n tutorials come to mind...haha
yup, the o week comm ppl showed us the videos of all the things that we had gone thru...
we ended it wif mamboing the whole nite...but honestly some of the songs are just wrong they shld play rnb...haha rnb rox!...haha..nevertheless i had lotsa fun...but the sticky honey was just yucky!haha
yup...
guess wad, the day never really ended yet, we played drinking games n thru'out the nite...wad a tiring day!
to be continued....

turning zombie soon - biological cycle screwed

feels like i havent been stepping into my room for so long n havent been using my laptop for ages.....lt 7 has become permanent home for shelterless zephyrians....
sigh...another night without sleep, which is apparently a common thing during camps or orientations in uni....
but I didnt feel any strong objection for that since we had so much fun....
yup, again orientation stuff.
morning, land games which ended in confussion as it started to rain n we couldnt continue playing in the open area. but overall the games really strengthen team bonding n gave us the chance to sabo councillors....but they actually do the saboing among themselves...haha we just requested for HAHA stone for every "task" done....
after the morning games, we had inauguration ceremony which is a formal thing that not many ppl look forward to except to get the nice file...even the seniors wanted us to take some spare ones for them...how desperate is that....?
but the ceremony is nothing but just speeches, pledge, performances and refreshment....oh ya, the performance by the accapella grp the resonance (similar to vj harmoc's concert name)was quite impressive though a bit too draggy. nevertheless, accapella grps always manage to wow me....
yup, after the ceremony was sp game...secret pal. I must say, this is the part where i really dun enjoy, though lots of effort have been put in to organise this. but the idea of randomly matchmaking ppl is never rite...(hey, i've done speed dating experiment for pw, u noe?...but wad's the link ya? haha. the game of angel n mortal during jc seem to be more enjoyable n less threatening...imagine u are blind-folded n paired wif a guy u dun noe at all....
yup, basically we were blind-folded using rubbish bag (that black one lah...) cut into long strips.... first of all, the blind-fold is super uncomfortable that my eyes sweat...how bad is that?
to top that up, we waited damn damn long before we were paired up....again randomly, by drawing lot...
last but not least, it's the partner that i got. actually i doesnt matter as it's just a one day programme thingy. so i dun care that much. when we were blind-folded n talk, he sounded like an okay person to me...as in sounded quite mature....
budden, when i saw him in person n saw wad he did wif his og mates (the guys esp), i'm not very impressed by that. I think that he's rather immature n he's just not my type lah...haha....anyway, this SP game actually made me realise how I treasure the ppl in my og...including the guys. they seem to be more proper, have more respect for the girls n seem to be friendlier...this is really a compliment....
hopefully my SP partner do not get to read this.haha...
but seriously, this sorta game is just a waste of time n i dun enjoy it...
after that SP games, we wanted to bathe. but sadly, everybody in the orientation oso wanted to bathe at the same time while the shower cubicles are just so limited....
after queuing for so long, we gave up n decided to get to the guys toilet and use the shower while nobody's there....of course the gentlemen in zephyr nicely offered their service to guard the toilet door just in case other guys wanna intrude...haha
ooppps...Is this not supposed to be said..haha...but it's just funny when I knew that the guys actually turned down a few other guys who wanted to use the guy's toilet....haha thx lah.
but our bathing beccame in vain as to get back to engin block from SRC we need to walk...n stupidly, we chose the shelterless route under the heavy rain...
as a result, we used our towels to cover the head and run like mad ppl to engin block...
ard 3 am in the morning, ppl beginning to feel hungry n decided to order Mcdonald's deliveries....before eating, i managed to steal a super short nap before the LT is full of distractions from freshies n ogls who have the hobby of singging karaoke.
as a result, I didnt get enuf sleep coz we needed to get ready at 530 am for flag day today...crazy loh...
yup, n flag day was done under very very tired mode. I even fell asleep as I was "dumped" in the van, to be transported to buona vista mrt....
my og was not the super enthu one abt getting the most donations. but i just feel that everybody cares for everybody elses... n I'm proud of my og because of that.
after the tiring flagging until 10 plus, we decided to ciaooo to orchard...haha running away from flag day. we had a brief lunch n I ended up joining some of them in K-box...something that I never tried throughout my 4 yrs in sg oltho it's kinda a trend here.
K-box was not a boring as I thot i would be as I have more exposures to chinese songs during the 7 months hols...haha
that was really fun n entertaining. shld try again next time...
I'm really tired now, dying to sleep but scared i cant sleep at nite after a short nap.
oh ya, tml got pinus activities which I still havent decide whether shld go or not...see the rest lah...haha...

zephyr-zephyr no1!

yay!
feeling hyper today, even though i only got 3 hrs of sleep.
the reason being is that, I'm just back from my orientation week, first day!....
I enjoy it so much yesterday. this is my first time after the 7 months break, making so many friends that i actually talk to, minggle ard, play stupid games, do stupid cheers to please the station master. i would like to describe further but words just cant seem enuf to express them all...so just leave it there...haha..sounds so cliche lah...
get wet n stinky after all the running ard nus for scavenger hunt...i emphasise AROUND NUS...which is like damn damn big lah....run from one corner to the other, from one dark tunnel to the next haunted house wif dummies or ppl there posing as the ghost...walau....quite scary actually....
bathe at 2 am in the morning using freezing cold water at SRC....but feel totally refreshed after that....n went for cheese prata supper at fongseng...
back to lt7, supposedly to sleep, but thx to the creative minds of my og ppl, we keep playing grp games even w/o prompting from the councillors. they even came up wif creative forfeit....and I kena once lah so far...
maybe that's the speciality of my og, always like to sabo ppl wif "challenging" forfiet....
really must thx the councillors for being so on from the very beginning n make us bond so well.... i cheer up aledy....yay!
but tiring days are waiting to come as the orientation series is not over yet....
yep...

i get back my peaceful room

at last, i manage to remove the bug which has been exploring my room for dunno how long....I feel terrorised by the bug that I couldnt have my peaceful sleep last nite. the buzzing sound of the wings n the sound of the hard excoskeleton hitting the 4 walls of my room is just super unpleasant that I hid under my blanket. u can laugh lah, but that's how much i hate bugs, insects n the family (everything with many legs). hopefully tonite i can properly recharge myself for tommorow's o week.
erlin moved out of pgp today. i dunno whether i shld be happy or sad for her....but i'm sad myself coz one less friend to disturb n to accompany me during lunch/dinner time without taking shuttle bus. I really feel lonely in this big place with so many ppl. ppl here are not as friendly as i expect, they just come n go.
my typical meal here is "sit down at one corner, staring at my phone as company". I noe I sound like a dumb person but that's how it is. sad aint it? or another option that wont make me look so dumb is to "dabao" n eat in my room while staring at my comp. I think if i continue this way, my only friends are gadgets.
actually I oso make some new friends wif the Indos here but somehow, i dun have the eagerness to stick to them. I just feel different. talking to fellow G11ers seem to be much easier.even though i noe some of their names(the new peeps), conversation is just a filler. no real interest somehow. they are busy with things that i dun understand. maybe we just have different lives.
tml o week shld be my window opener.oh pls, let me meet new friends that i can click with.
i noe i sound so sad n despo. but not too worry, I'll get back to my cheerful self once i noe more ppl n feel comfortable. i can manage okay!

the aftermath

went for med check up today....the thing i hate the most...esp the blood test. I just looked away and squeeze my hand hard when the nurse took my blood. and my arm still hurts until now. hiks. actually not that bad lah, but i'm always traumatised after every blood check...hiiiii luckily over liao
then after that i made yc run back n forth from engin block to university hall there just to find out that I'm too kanchiong abt reimbursement...haha...sorry yc..
oh ya, then met some indos in PGP, they are quite friendly but i really dunno any of them lah. I think they are mostly newbie...so young...me so old.haha...this one not impt lah. shld be more open n make friends now. that's why i decided to go for engin camp. hopefully it's fun n wont get ostracised....
need to bid for modules soon but feel super lost now coz i dun have the bulletins which cost 10 bucks...sigh money money money. uni life is very very different from JC or sec where u can just anyhow follow ppl. now i have to determine my own path but I'm so scared of making mistakes...that's my weakness. a perfectionist at heart. haha I admit it myself actually.
the 3rd is my matric day. another hectic day, yet super impt. and must decide wad cca I'm joining later. I'm so divided coz i feel like tying everything but I got the premonition that i'll be like the old times where I'm just too lazy to sign up due to the auditions.haha...just take the easy way. but why not try n adventure?
these days my life only evolves ard uni life only. nothing else to boast abt...haha
but it's good to see more n more familiar faces around.